I returned from the war with scars that run deeper than my flesh.
Tormented by memories of the past I wonder if I'll ever be able to become the man I used to be, or if I'm always destined to be this shell that returned from the foreign country, broken and battered and defeated.
There seems to be little hope for improvement until I receive a surprising call from my old best friend, Clint.
We lost touch a while ago as life took its hold on us, but as we reconnect, I start to remember why he was such a good friend.
He's the only one who can get me to talk about my emotions, and as I open up to him, I start to feel something else.
Something unfamiliar...something a little scary, but very exciting.
Maybe, just maybe, we can save each other.

My Soldier is a standalone Gay Romance with a HEA and NO cheating!

All Scott has wanted since a child was to represent his favorite hockey team, but after a couple of seasons toiling away on the bench, he's traded away unceremoniously.
At first, it hurts, but he vows to play well enough to make them regret ever letting him go.
He's welcomed at his new team by Mark, the personal trainer, and the two of them form an instant bond.
Scott is unable to deny the attraction he feels, even though exploring it could jeopardize his standing among his new teammates.
Mark is an anchor to Scott until everything around him starts to sink.
Scott is forced to ask himself if his career is more important than his personal life.
He's already lost one dream, can he afford to lose another?
And when it comes time to face his former club, will he prove them right or wrong?

Will McVitch is one of the star players on his baseball team – but he'd never consider himself a celebrity.
He's just an athlete.
Why people are even interested in his personal life, he has never really understood – so when it turns out that a new member of the team, Canadian import Gabriel Marten, has a crush on him already, he can barely comprehend that Gabe even knows who he is.
The fact that he's straight and Gabe is gay barely occurs to him, at least for a little while.
As for Gabe's part, he's frustrated that this is even an issue.
When he got the offer to play for this team, he was thrilled to be getting a spot on a professional US team.
His career means the world to him.
It was just the cherry on the cake that he'd be playing alongside long-time crush Will – and in the warm California sun to boot.
But as it turns out, Will is even more appealing in person, whether he's straight or not.
Tensions in the team are running high,...]]> Wed, 16 Feb 2022 07:15:36 +0200 https://business.library.land/van-cole/636827-getting_inked.html https://business.library.land/van-cole/636827-getting_inked.html

Dealing with an ex is never easy business.
Anyone who's been divorced will tell you that.
But, when your ex invites you to her wedding, what else is there to do but say yes?
My tattooed ass was never the best son-in-law material.
Too much of a bad boy in me, I guess.
Seeing her family goes as smoothly as it can, under the circumstances.
There, I stumble across my ex's younger brother.
As always, one drink leads to another and he makes a move on me.
My first reaction is to punch him straight in the face.
My second reaction is to consider apologizing.
My third reaction has me questioning who I am.
This guy, who just happened to walk into my life, drives me crazy without even trying.
Should I just let go and allow the unthinkable to happen?

An unexpected connection with a student begins an uphill battle of self-discovery for me with serious consequences.
When Morgan came into my life, my world was turned upside down.
Coming to terms with my feelings for Morgan was the easy part.
It was facing the world, afterward that I struggled with.
The return of my ex-wife Claire, the threat of a Nationwide pandemic, and with my job on the line.
I had to choose between the life I had built for myself and my daughter or taking a risk at finding the love I never thought I would have.
The love that Morgan and I have for one another was put through one test after another.
Would it be strong enough to survive?
How much am I willing to risk for love and will it all be worth it in the end?

18+ Only. Standalone gay romance with a HEA.

Chris Knoll is one of the top players for the New York Rangers.
Anybody who knows anything about hockey is impressed with his performance – and that includes noted sports journalist Matt Tucker.
Trouble is, not everybody in the industry takes Matt too seriously because he's openly gay.
When he arrives to conduct a profile of Chris for Sports Illustrated, Chris's homophobic teammates are quick to warn him to be careful.
As the two get to know each other, however, Chris's guard goes down and his interest kicks in.
Despite the backlash against him, Matt is tenacious and bold.
He defies all the negative stereotypes Chris has ever had about gay people – and he's awakening an attraction in Chris that's never come to the surface before.
But for a top-league sports player at the height of his career, swarmed by girls every time he leaves the house, hooking up with a writer is not really an option.
After all, this is the kind of secret you try...]]> Thu, 30 May 2024 11:56:12 +0300 https://business.library.land/van-cole/649687-end_zone.html https://business.library.land/van-cole/649687-end_zone.html

Connor Montana is a well-established player for the Packers, and just settling into his fame.
With very little reason to be shoved into the spotlight, he's never really gotten accustomed to dealing with the press.
In stark contrast, meet Diego Delgado.
The Packers' newest acquisition, Diego has been proving himself all season as a force to be reckoned with – which is really helping to kill the backlash he's had from being an openly gay player.
A beacon for LGBT representation in the sport, Diego barely stops being followed, photographed and interviewed.
When celebrations get out of hand Connor and Diego accidentally get married to one another, it's a surprise for several reasons... not least because Connor is 'straight', and everybody had long since assumed that Diego was actually dating fellow out gay Packers teammate Toby Mendez.
Things get exponentially more complicated when the marriage is leaked to the media, changing Connor's lifestyle from quiet...]]> Mon, 03 Jul 2023 18:06:27 +0300 https://business.library.land/van-cole/680880-falling_for_my_tutor.html https://business.library.land/van-cole/680880-falling_for_my_tutor.html

When I agreed to start tutoring this jock, the last thing I expected was to fall for him, get rejected by him, and then have him show up on my doorstep.
Robbie
Maybe I was prejudiced but I preferred to keep my distance from all jocks. High school had taught me they were all trouble and college was no different. The only reason I even agreed to tutor him in the first place is because my favorite teacher asked. What I didn't expect was to fall for him.
James
I needed a certain GPA to keep my football scholarship, so I needed a tutor. He was hostile at first but despite our differences, we became friends. Then he kissed me. I rejected him because I'm not gay. Yet, for some reason, I can't stop thinking of him and after a few days, I end up at his doorstep.

A childhood friend turns into a college rival, and the worst thing is I want him, badly.
We were preparing for the big football game against our rivals when I saw him, my old childhood friend.
Now he's strutting his stuff as a male cheerleader, his tight muscles on display, playing havoc with my mind.
I've still been struggling to come out.
The last thing I need is to have a crush on a rival cheerleader, especially when that person is from my past.
I have to try and keep things a secret because there's no way an enemy can become a lover, but why can't I stop thinking about him?
Is this just a case of opposites attracting?
I have to try and keep it together because if anyone finds out then my cover will be blown and I'm not ready to be out.
My Dad would kill me.
But damn if I don't hate the way Liam makes it look so easy...
Going Offside is a standalone Gay Romance with a HEA and NO cheating!

This Hockey Star Treated my Heart like a Puck.
I thought my dreams had come true when Rudy Marsh came back home and hired me to train him.
I was a new trainer and now I had one of the hottest stars in the business.
He would be the catalyst for my success.
All I had to do was treat him well.
But God he didn't make it easy.
From the moment we met, he tortured me, tormented me, and pushed me to my limits.
And then it happened.
He made me do something I never thought would happen.
He pushed me too far but I realized I liked it.
I've never been with a man and now I can't stop thinking of him.
Is this a part of his evil game?
I can't be with him though he's my client.
Or can I?
Training a Hockey Star is a standalone Gay Romance with a HEA and NO cheating!

Harvey Price is the best player in the league but he's playing for the wrong team.
He's known as hockey's playboy.
Every time he goes into a bar, he finds someone new to flirt with.
That is until he meets Jay Collins, the new defenseman for his team and his potential replacement.
His usual approach doesn't work on Jay because, well, he's smitten.
But Harvey Price can't be gay.
He's known for chasing skirts and yet, he cannot deny that Jay is the best-looking thing he's seen in a while.
And then there's the fitness trainer.
Oh, he is too.
And Harvey is left with a three-way tie.

Will he stick to the straight and narrow?
Or will he go for the handsome young hockey player gunning for his position?
Or maybe work up a sweat with his personal trainer during after-hours?

Whatever his choice, this book is bound to melt right through the ice.

There's a first time for everything...
I should be used to Leah's whims, at this point, strange though they've always been.
If my baby sister wants to have a wedding in the middle of nowhere, who am I to tell her 'No'?
Even if small town mindsets make me itch.
At least the guy running the only bed and breakfast in town, Randall, with his curious nature and kind smile, seems nice enough.
Being the only gay man in a small town isn't easy.
Adding to that the past-due rent bills and the stress of managing an empty bed and breakfast, it was a blessing to hear that there would be a large wedding taking place up at the old lodge.
I hadn't expected anything of it except being able to actually pay the bills, until I met Mister Tall, Dark, and Handsome. And, unfortunately, straight. Or so I thought.

I Dreamed Of Being With Him In High School...
But Now I'm Getting More Than Expected...
There's nothing more difficult than keeping a secret in high school.
That's actually the reason I didn't want to attend my 10 year reunion.
But that changes when I find out a close friend is attending.
We were just friends back then, but I always had a crush on him.
A part of keeping my secret meant I could never tell him that.
We casually catch up at the reunion, he tells me about his football career, and we end up at his hotel room.
What follows is a passionate whirlwind of hot action with my high school crush AND his boyfriend.
Was it just a one night stand or is there more to our story?
Double-Teamed is a standalone MMM First Time Football Romance with a HEA and NO cheating!